Stop. Savor. See.

I'm linking up with Holley Gerth today for Coffee for Your Heart. Today's prompt is "what would you most like to hear when you've had a bad day?"


Yesterday, I was very inspired by the gentle snowfall that I woke up to. I wrote a poem as a gentle reminder to myself. Maybe it can be a reminder to you as well. 

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This snow is a surprise this morning for this non-news-watcher.

This blanket of white that greeted me upon waking.

The flakes clump together all cottonball-like

floating,

suspended,

landing gently.

God's changing the look of His Iowa canvas today.

And, I'm savoring the messages that brings.

This snow speaks to me:

Stop.

Savor.

See.

See me and breathe.

Copy my pace.

I'm in no hurry today.

I'm here to show beauty.

I'm here to remind the watchers that there is beauty to behold.

Stop.

Take a cup of warmth in your hands and gaze.

Whatever you were in such a rush to do can wait just a few moments more.

Stop

to consider this moment

this beauty

this pace.

This, my snowfall pace will allow you to think and see.

Maybe you'll remember some beauty from your past that will bring a smile.

Maybe you'll breathe a little easier and deeper.

Maybe your shoulders will lower just a little more

and your brow be less furrowed.

Allow me to remind you of these things.

This pausing brings life to your harried and hurried self.

Stop.

Savor.

See.

This peace,

this beauty,

this gift I bring today.

Blessings to you,

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Also linking up with Three Word Wednesday.

     

To see clearly

Things go much better when I can see clearly. 

See clearly where you end and I begin. 

When I can realize that maybe your struggle to connect with me isn’t about me at all, but about where you are at right now.

Why must I always take things so personally, like you are out on a vendetta to get me back for something?

When did this “taking things so personally” begin?

I don’t know.

I want to see your heart beyond your words.

Even if your words don’t come through clearly and I must work at deciphering your true meaning, I want to put forth that effort.

I want to understand you as I want you to understand me.

I want to show you empathy and not judgement.

I want to cultivate wonder rather than the critical eye.

So many things get in the way of us seeing each other clearly.

I must remember that.

I want to remember that.

I want to know the real you.

The things that hurt you. 

The things that bring you joy. 

The things that make your heart come alive.

This requires me to put on new lenses.

Supernatural lenses that allow me to see truthfully and not just through the foggy lenses of my own doubts and weaknesses.

I want to take off the foggy rose-colored, tainted, tinted lenses

To see you clearly.

I'm linking up with the lovely writers at Lisa Jo Baker's blog for Five Minute Friday. Today's prompt is "see". Free writing. No edits. Writing just for the sheer joy of it. Won't you join up with this great community?

When you don't want to walk around the block in winter

This afternoon it's twenty one degrees in my neck of the the Iowa woods. There are still piles of snow left from our epic blizzard right before Christmas. Recent above freezing temps have formed ski slope-looking paths through the front bushes. As I think about how my waistband is experiencing post holiday tension, I think how badly I need to get out for a walk.

I am a fair weather walker which means when it's winter, I don't walk much outside. I force myself into my black bubble coat and pull on my gloves. I pull my red knitted scarf out of the basket and my college daughter laments, again, that the scarf is mine and not hers. I grab my black, fuzzy ear muffs out of the van. I'm not excited. I'm forcing myself on this walk in this twenty one degree winter-ness because of how I feel in my jeans and because of how I know I'll feel afterwards.

Lots of reasons to not walk cross my mind as I'm putting my second arm through the sleeve. It will probably be boring. I'll have to walk alone. I'll get cold. I might slip on an ice patch. I put on my coat anyway.

I discover that the sidewalk is mostly clear of ice and snow thanks to the excellent shoveling and snow blowing of my husband and neighbors. This is a good sign.

A few steps down and I see a snowman as tall as me in a neighbor's yard. He has crooked sticks for arms, but if he had a face, it has since fallen somewhere in the snow below his invisible feet.

I have to duck under a tree branch hanging over the sidewalk next. I notice big buds on the branch. Really? In January? New signs of spring in January. A gift.

Half way around the block and my fingers are getting cold through my gloves that are mostly warm enough for driving. I shove my hands in my pockets. I walk past the house where a couple, now divorced, used to live when they were active in our small group. They've been gone about seven years, but every time I walk past that house, it is their house and they still live there. Together.

Another snowman right before I turn another corner getting closer to home. This guy still has a face made of charcoal briquettes, and a real carrot. His head dons a Cubs ball cap and a dated pink chiffon scarf hangs loosely at his neck. I think to myself that this snowman is more loved than the first one without a face.

I turn the last corner towards home. I think it hasn't been so bad after all, this winter walk where two snowmen greet me. And, a budding branch appears before my freezing nose. I take the two steps up into the house and vow that I will take more winter trips around my block with eyes to see.

eyes wide open: to a renewed spirit {day 31}

During the past 31 days, I've met some new bloggers. That has been really cool. Let me tell you, there are some great writers out there! 

This morning, I clicked into one link up at The Nester that I hadn't before. I have to say that God used Christina at The Frugal Homemaker to breathe new life into my motivation to clean, rearrange and decorate my home. At least for today! Thank you, Christina!

I used to be a person who loved to rearrange my furniture. Rearrange my accessories. I used to decorate my porch for each season. Sometime in the past few years, though, I think I lost some oomph to do many of those things. Oh, I've kept buying the Do It Yourself, Cottage Living and other decor magazines hoping to find that perfect idea that won't cost any money or energy, but will turn my house into Better Homes and Gardens perfect. But, I haven't had the mental or emotional energy to put any wind behind my sails. Too many other things in my life have been sapping that energy right out of me.

Today, after checking out The Frugal Homemaker, I got a little wind back in my decorating sails. She showed pics of how her kitchen looked after just weeding out all the stuff on her fridge and decluttering her counter tops! I said to myself, hey, I could do that. Then, I looked in my living room adjacent to the kitchen and it needed vacuuming. Being careful with my healing back, I thought, hey, I can just vaccuum. I put on Michael Buble station on Pandora and started to get to it. 

One thing led to another and I ended up moving a chair and side table to the opposite side of the room, putting the blue exercise ball in the basement where it belongs, throwing away several old Bible study folders, and making a new fangled arrangement for the side table. 

The only way to explain this burst of creative energy is that the Spirit of God blew some fresh wind in my sails. And, He used another blogger to do that. 

Now, because my room is clean and a bit rearranged, it's made me feel renewed and energized. I'm going to start tackling some of the other rooms this week. 

Thanks for keeping up with me this month! I'll keep posting, just probably at a bit slower pace. :)

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: a diamond in the snow {day 30}

Several years ago I lost something very valuable to me.

We had gone to a flooring store that night. It was wintertime and in the winter my hands get so dry.  I took off my gloves and my wedding ring and set them in my lap to put on hand lotion. I got out of the car when we got there. Got back in the car when we were done looking. And, we drove home. I got the kids ready for bed. I was lying in bed about to fall asleep and I realized I wasn't wearing my wedding ring. gasp!

Then, I remembered that I had put lotion on my hands in the car. I turned to my husband who was about to drift off, and told him I don't have my wedding ring!  My gracious husband got out of bed on a cold night and drove back to the carpet store to see if he could possibly find it. And, I stayed home in bed and prayed. I knew God cared about my ring.

About twenty minutes passed and I heard the garage door go up. I was hoping he had good news. He came back to our bedroom and said that when he turned into the parking lot, now empty of everything except snow, he noticed the light from our headlights glinting off of something in the snow. That's right. My ring!  

It had been snowing the whole time since we had shopped there. A snow plow could have come and pushed my ring into a huge pile of snow. A car could have run over it. Someone could have stolen it. But no, it was right where I had dropped it. And, it was in perfect condition. Do you think God protected my ring?  

Have you lost something valuable? Do you feel lost?

God cares about even the little things. God specializes in finding lost things.

Luke 19:10 "For the Son of Man has come to seek and to save that which was lost."

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: baptism, Batman and Elvis {days 27-29}

I wrote on Facebook today, Help! I've lost my motivation and I can't get up!  I know you know what I mean. I sat in my chair most of the morning reading different blog posts on my phone and drinking cup after cup of hot tea. I wrote a little, read a little, cried a little, felt guilty for sitting there a little. And then I kept sitting there. Sometimes, I need days like this. Especially after a high intensity weekend.

But, the weekend was filled full of abundance. 

Awesome teaching at the Alpha Holy Spirit retreat. Being "baptized" with a super-soaker by the pastor. Being prayed for by three different gals whom I had just met. And, that is just scratching the surface. 

My nephew's wedding and wedding dance provided more than a little joy. There was The Cupid Shuffle complete with batman masks. Dancing with my son. A conversation with my other son about renewed vision for his future in Forestry. Conversations with family and friends over booming bass.

We were told that we had to make a pitstop at the photo booth before we left the reception. I'm thinking, photo booth? So we go there and there is a brown backdrop taped to the wall and a table filled with different goofy hats, glasses, and other props. I made my hubby put on Elvis shades and a goofy hat. Can't wait to see how that turned out.

In between all of these things was the prevalent feeling of joy. I know God was there. God With Us. I saw him working in relationships that used to be broken but are now mended. I saw Him speak to people about His love for them. I saw Him at work in those around me.

I might be tired today, but I am full, and my life is full.

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: nice cars and Jesus {day 26}

Aunt Esther (far right) and ladies out for a drive

More digging around in my closet and I run across these two treasures. I love these pictures because of the stories they tell. 

The tire cover in the top photo has the name Holdrege, Nebraska on it. This is the town that I grew up in. The license plate says 1934. This would have been fourteen years before my dad would come from Sweden to live with Uncle Carl and Aunt Esther. And twenty nine years before I entered the scene. 

Aunt Esther has her arm slung around her sister's shoulder in my post on {day 7}. This time, it looks like she's probably out on a Sunday afternoon drive with a couple of other ladies, maybe her sisters Anna and Louise. Pretty certain that Uncle Carl was their photographer and chauffeur. Aunt Esther never learned how to drive a car.

Uncle Carl and his car

I can't help but notice my Uncle Carl in this photo with (I'm pretty sure) the same car. I get a kick out of the way he is casually posing by it. No stuffed-shirt posing for this man! This pose says, Dig my new wheels?

Did you notice the "Jesus Saves" bumper sticker in the rear window? What a hoot. Bumper stickers in the 1930's? This tells me a couple things about my Great Aunt and Uncle.

1. They loved Jesus
2. They wanted to show Him off

I'm glad to know my Uncle Carl loved his car. I'm even more glad that he loved Jesus. 


see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: when a tree whispers {day 25}

When I was old enough I climbed in her branches. The sap from her bark would make my little hands sticky. That didn't matter. When I climbed up and up, but not up too far, I felt like I was on top of the world. 

Wind whispering in her enveloping branches, she held me. She held the birds, too. Looking back on it, she was really a God-sent friend to shelter me and give me hope and time to think and dream. 

Little me in front of the Cedar tree

She said I was safe. 

She said I was valuable. 

She said it was okay to be me.

She said it was okay to have fun. 

She said it was okay to enjoy being alone. 
She was enough.

With passing years, my delight in her branches would come to an end. I would miss her, and yet not be fully aware of what I was missing.

I thank God for my sheltering tree. God was there with the tree and me in those whispering branches. He breathed strength into my small self for all of the hard experiences I would have in the future. 

I look back and I see Him nodding His approving yes.

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: the present moment {day 24}

I want to become a  better noticer of what is going on inside of me and around me. That was my quest at the beginning of this 31 days of blogging, but I'm not sure I'm really hitting on what I want to hit on yet. I want to live in the moment I am in. To become more present.

Last night my husband said, "C'mon, we're going to see the sunset." So we hop in the van for a drive to a lake that is not too far from our house. Saylorville Lake. 

As I sit here tonight, I'm thinking of all the things I noticed last night at the lake.

The mini-waves lapping at the beach.
The gorgeous round orange sun getting lazy and closer to the horizon.
The crying sea gulls gathering on the warm parking lot, maybe for the night?
Three sea gulls flying silhouetted between us and the sun. 
Sun shimmering over still water. 

I don't remember what we were talking about on the driveway after we got back, but I remember really looking at my husband's eyes when he was talking. I noticed how blue they were. And, he smiled and chuckled at something I said. He was genuinely happy. 

It was one of those rare times that I just really looked and my mind was with the looking. I wasn't  thinking of what I was going to say next. I was not thinking anything except for that very moment.

I want to do this more often.

Living in the present moment is to be fully aware of what is going on inside me and around me. I believe this is part of the abundant life that Jesus meant for me. To be a noticer. I'm going to keep practicing the Present Moment.

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: President Truman and me {day 23}

I have an addiction. The librarians probably roll their eyes. My husband and daughter think I've gone mad. My prescription eyeglasses keep needing improvement. 

I have an addiction to books. 

I confess that I have too many. That I check out too many at a time from the library. I don't mean I've gone over the library's limit for number of books. I mean I've gone over a reasonable limit. A number of books that I can actually finish reading before we take off on another library or Half Price Books jaunt. 

The ottoman in front of my reading chair is always full of books. Right now on my ottoman I have  notebooks with lined paper,
journals (one already full and my current one to write in),
two Bibles,
library books,
devotional books,
pens and highlighters,
a Pottery Barn ad booklet that I haven't looked at yet
and the church bulletin from two weeks ago.
I can't seem to help myself.

I've tried to clean off my ottoman. Hubby says, why don't you clear that off so you can put your feet up? I reason to myself that I should. So I do. I clean it off. I put the library books back in the basket intended for them, my Bibles and other books on the shelf. But, by the next day, I have books littering the ottoman again. 

I do somewhat beat myself up for this. I am not a neat freak, and I'm over that one. But, this one little spot (you would think) would be easy to keep clean. Nope.

I've been trying hard to figure out why I want all of my reading and writing materials within an easy arms reach of where I'm sitting. All the time. 

Last spring my husband and I visited the Truman Presidential Library in Liberty, MO. I was so encouraged to find out that President Truman was an avid reader like me. And, he also had to have all his books piled up around his reading chair. It's true. 

We toured the Truman Home and right there in the study was his chair they said. And, just like it was when he was sitting there for real the books were piled high. I cannot tell you how validating that information was. That the President of our United States of America had a reading addiction like me. 

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: when you miss the kiss {day 22}

With eyes of wonder, I clutched my dolly, Snuggles, as we waited in the airport. This would be my first airplane ride ever. We were going across the ocean to visit Grandma and Grandpa Aberg (pronounced Oberg). There is no way my four year old mind could wrap around how far it actually was to Sweden. But, I felt safe by my mommy and daddy's side. Snuggles in one arm, my other hand tightly clasping Daddy's. 

the flower girls (I am on the left)

My Uncle Birger (Bir-yer) was marrying a cute young lady named Karin. I was going to be a flower girl with my cousin, Ing-Marie. We had matching pink dresses, matching necklaces, matching white gloves and matching headbands with real flowers in them. I felt like a princess.


The beautifully ornate little church was filling with freshly pressed dresses and starched shirts. My mommy told me to be sure and pay attention during the ceremony because the bride and groom were going to kiss! As a four year old, I guess this was something as big as seeing Mickey and Minnie Mouse at Disneyland. From my recollection, this event in the ceremony was the one thing to be sure to see. 

the famous "kiss"

Walking carefully down the aisle beside Ing-Marie, with basket of rose petals in my left hand, I took my place beside my uncle and I waited with four-year-old wonder. And watched. I waited and watched some more. The preacher spoke everything in Swedish. gibberish to my four-year-old self. All I could think about was when are they going to kiss? 

Then, I missed it.

 I don't know if I was zoomed in on the preacher's fru-fru robe, or if I turned to look at mommy and daddy in the congregation. But, at that precise moment when I looked away, it happened. I was so disappointed that I missed the kiss.

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Somewhere along the way to growing up, I've had to learn to pay attention to wonder. It doesn't just happen the way it did when I was four. How does it happen that wonder slips out the back door when we're little, but then later beckons to be found?

 I now prize those four-year-old eyes that were so eager to see that one solitary wedding kiss. Eyes that were full of wonder. Something deep inside me whispers, even though you missed the kiss that day, don't miss the wonder.  

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: all things new {day 21}

 The sun rises on a new day. Animals are waking. People are waking from slumber. It's a day that has never been in history before--brand new! The birds celebrate the new day with their songs. 

The new day has anticipated promise. Hope is still fresh and new for the good things that God will do during the day. Lord, I praise you for new.

I've been seeking for the past 20 days to see things with new eyes. (actually, it's much longer than that.) Today, I ask myself the question, what is so special about 'new'?

All of humanity seems to crave new experiences, new relationships, new things. Ever gotten a new book and you are the first to crack it open and touch the crisp, clean words? My hubby always likes to be the first one to dip into the new peanut butter jar.  And just look at babies. Humans, kittens, puppies.  I need say no more. There is something about new that is fresh. Untainted.

Is it because God makes all things new?

• His mercies are new every morning. 
• He turns those who believe in Him into new creatures. 
• He will someday create a new heaven and a new earth.

I think there is something here. There is something inherently special and creative about new. 


The Lords lovingkindnesses  indeed never cease, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.   
Lamentations 3:22-23

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.  II Corinthians 5:17

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: to hope {day 20}

Hope: comfort, expectation, confidence, trust.

Proverbs 13:12 Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life.

What are you hoping for? Have your hopes ever been dashed to pieces? 

I'm hoping for many things.
I'm hoping for healing and wholeness.
I'm hoping that my family grows in the knowledge that God loves them.
I'm hoping for healthy relationships.
I'm hoping one day to continue my education.

There have been times that my hopes were smashed to pieces--which led at times to a feeling of hopelessness.  I also realize that not all of my hopes will be realized if they are in the wrong things. 

Even though I love my family deeply, there is no guarantee in this life that we will not ever disappoint one another.

I have found that there is only One object of my hope that promises to never disappoint me or let me down. God promises that He is my hope. His Word is hope. His kind of hope is an anchor.  I like the sound of that. A hope that is so solid that it becomes my pillar. My security. Something I can trust in no matter what is going on in my circumstances. 

I have found God's supernatural hope to be trustworthy. Even in my darkest times. His hope has allowed me to see beyond my current situation (hope) to better days. 



Romans 5:5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

Romans 15:4 Such things were written in the Scriptures long ago to teach us. And the Scriptures give us hope and encouragement as we wait patiently for God's promises to be fulfilled. 

Hebrews 6:19 This hope is a strong and trustworthy anchor for our souls. It leads us through the curtain into God's inner sanctuary.

Are you disappointed today? Grab on to God's kind of hope. His anchor and security for your soul. He will never disappoint you. 

Psalm 62:5 Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: every day is new {day 19}

While I sit here at the computer, my little yellow canary, Gideon, flits about his cage. He stops to preen, then looks out the window at some birds in the bushes, all the while making those tiny jerky bird movements with his head. After that, he hops down to the clear plastic feeder and eats a few seeds. It is so amazing to me how little he eats. I guess that's where the saying, "he eats like a bird" comes from. He then hops over to the bell that is hanging under his swing, and makes clicking noises with his beak at his own reflection dangling there. 

Every morning, when I uncover his cage from the night darkness, he is already awake and has beckoned me to his cage with a few chirps. Sometimes even singing before I can get him uncovered. He is never in a bad mood. At least he doesn't show it if he is. I like that. In that way, I want to be like him. 

Gideon

It baffles me that he seems as happy as can be in his cage. I feel bad sometimes that he lives in such a small space. But, my daughter reminded me one time, mom, remember, he has such a little brain that to him his cage is  just enough. He is not like us. You know what? She is very wise. 

What does talking about my canary's daily living habits have to do with eyes wide open: seeing with new eyes? Gideon reminds me each morning when I uncover him, that it is a new day. A day to make a fresh start. A day to rejoice in, to live carefree, and to enjoy the space in which I live. 

And, when evening comes and it's time to go to bed, just fluff up my pillow and with no worries, go to sleep.

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: when God puts you in school {day 18}

I ran across this list of ideas that I had written down in my journal as possibilities for the 31 days of blogging. You already know which one I picked. 

31 days of learning to wait well

31 days of learning to wait with a good attitude

31 days to healthier relationships

31 days to a happy heart. (Proverbs 17:22)

31 days of soul healing

31 days to heal your soul

31 days to soul peace

31 days to find your true voice

31 days to emotional freedom

31 days of learning to notice

31 days to soul freedom

eyes wide open: seeing with new eyes

Well, I guess the ideas were flowing that day! (yep, they are kind of repetitive--this was a chicken scratched, self-brainstorming session one day riding in the car) 

Each of those potential 31 day topics represent a specially designed God School tailored just for me. A school that God has put me in at one time or another over the past few years. To teach me how to wait. How to have soul peace and how to find my true voice. But, it hasn't been a cake walk! My grades haven't always been the best, but God always grades on the curve.  I've often thought God, when do I graduate? I'm ready to graduate already!! Could you let up a little?

Even as I've said those things to God, He has been faithfully teaching me through the experiences of life--the good and the not so good--the fears and disappointments. Thanks to His work in my life, I now have more emotional freedom than I did even six months ago. I am finding my true voice. It has taken way too long! And I'm finding peace and healing. Sometimes it feels like glacial speed, this growing.

I came across a verse just this afternoon that sums up how I feel about God's school, and the results of His school in my life. I give Him thanks for all He has done and is doing.

I waited patiently and expectantly for the Lord; and He inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up out of a horrible pit [a pit of tumult and of destruction], out of the miry clay (froth and slime), and set my feet upon a rock, steadying my steps and establishing my goings.

Psalm 40:1-2

God does hear my cries. He has drawn me up out of a pit and set my feet upon a rock. Without Him, my steps would not be steady and my goings would not be established. 

I wonder what school He'll have me in next. I'm leaning in to Him to find out. 

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: to discover creativity {day 17}

I've been reluctant to call myself a writer. I will say, I like to write. Not, I am a writer. Saying that I am a writer seems like I am bragging. I don't feel good enough to acknowledge I am a writer. But, I don't think other people are bragging when they say they are writers!? 

Taking part in this 31 days of blogging has been challenging. But, very fun. I am learning things about writing the more I write. I am learning not to compare myself with other writers. I am learning that not only do I have a voice as in speaking, I also have a writer's voice. At least I am maybe just beginning to get a little tiny bit of a glimpse of my writing voice. It is a journey of discovery.

I mentioned The Mindful Writer book on day one of the 31 days. It is a little book that is a quick read and it had some of the most encouraging words to me as I struggle to find my writing voice. I learned from that author that I am not the only one that struggles to find their writing voice. I am not the only one who struggles with creativity. 

I also picked up a book that my husband had checked out of the library. It was on creativity. I didn't read the whole book (because it was one of those "guy" business books), but the author did have some great quotes that I wrote down in my journal. I've since reread them several times for encouragement in writing. Hugh MacLeod says:

**Put your whole self into it, and you will find your true voice. Hold back and you won't. It's that simple. (there's how to find my voice!)

**People respond to the humanity, not the form. (whew!)

**Whether you're writing to an audience of one, five, a thousand, a million, ten million, there's really only one way to truly connect. Write from the heart.

That's what I'm learning. I am learning to write from the heart and to put my whole self into it. This has not come easy. It took me a long time to gain the courage to even write one blog post. But, I started writing regularly here in May of this year. And, here I am seventeen days into blogging every day in October.  I will  continue on....with joy in the journey!

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: to see beauty {day 16}

sunset from my deck

I'm obsessed with sunsets. For twelve years we've lived in a house I complained about when we bought it because it has a corner fireplace. What I didn't realize when we bought it was that it would have a spectacular view of the western sky.

Every night that it's not cloudy or raining, the colors splash themselves across the sky. A new pattern every night.  Blue, purple, yellow, pink, orange, and many other shades I cannot name swirl together in awesome beauty. 

It's like God gets out his easel and says, Tonight I'm going heavy on the purple and pink, with subtle shades of yellow. I'm doing it for my kids. Because I love them. In fact, I'm going to paint this one just for Anne to enjoy tonight.

Yes, I do believe God speaks loud and clear through His creation. Including sunsets. And, why not? He makes it for you. And me. He delights in delighting us.

Another beautiful one.

Tonight, find a place to see the sunset. Relish in God's beautiful handiwork that He paints just for you. And, give thanks.

see day 1 for a list of all 31 posts

eyes wide open: open hands or closed fists {day 15}

Today, I don't want to wait anymore. I'm waiting on so many things. I'm always waiting.

 I"m tired of waiting. But, I have no choice except to wait.

I have no choice except waiting, but I do get to choose the attitude that I wait with.
Do I wait in faith that God is working behind the scenes? Do I wait in faith that He causes all things to work together for my good? That all things are possible with Him?

Or, do I wait in despair and frustration? Taking my waiting into my own hands where it feels like I have more control? But, feelings don't necessarily speak truth. They just are.

 It's basically my choice. I can either wait with open hands to what God has for me next, or I can wait with closed fists. Closed fists is a stance that says I'm taking the world on! Don't get in my way. Clenched fists say, I'll do it my way! 

Closed-fist-waiting leaves no room for God to work in my waiting.


Open-hands waiting means I am eager to hear God. To see Him work in my less than ideal circumstances. Open-hands waiting means humility. You are God and I am not.

Open-hands waiting is a deliberate choice to go past the demands of my flesh to the deeper spirit part of me.

The Spirit of God resides there in my spirit. If I can wait well, with open-hands, that means I am open to God's voice. Open to what He wants to teach me in this waiting. Open to His grace.

I don't want to wait anymore. I can't wait with a good attitude. 

I need you, Spirit of God, to teach me to wait well.

"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

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eyes wide open: beauty and purpose {day 14}

Leaf

Disconnected from its life-giving source,

beautiful in its vibrant color

it is nevertheless dying.

Yet floating.

As if on outstretched wings,

trusting in God's purpose for it.

Even though its earthly purpose is now past, 

it did not live in vain.

For a season it gave life to the tree from which it came.

And, even in the dying there is beauty.

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May I be like the leaf.

Beautiful.

Trusting.

Carried.

For the season that is my life.

Realizing my ultimate purpose;

to glorify God in my body

to rest in my Father's care.

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