I'm linking up with the lovely Kate Motaung at Five Minute Friday where whoever loves to write decides to silence the inner critic and write for five minutes straight. Today's prompt is "notice".
I took some larger things off my wall yesterday and took
them right to the consignment store. A large clock, a large shelf, a picture
and a sunburst decoration. It wasn’t necessarily difficult to get rid of these
things.
What I notice now though, with those bare spots on my walls is that I’m
a bit more uneasy.
I am not a meticulous house keeper, so it’s not that.
But, those gaps in the décor are staring at me, reminding me that in the next
few days time, everything on the walls and on the floors must go (to the new house).
I am excited about this, but I have a feeling there are
deeper feelings underlying my reluctance to start packing in earnest. I have a
feeling I will have to grieve some of the collectibles I will have to get rid
of to move to a smaller home.
I will grieve those times in the past fourteen
years that our family has made memories in this home. When we moved in our children
were 7, 10 and 12. Now they are 21, 24 and 26. So much has changed over this
past decade plus four years. We had children, now our children are adults.
Maybe this is why the gaps on the walls where pictures
have been taken down stir an uneasiness in me. Maybe this is why I can’t seem
to tape a box together and start putting things in it.
I will cherish the memories, even as I am excited to move
on. And, as I pack I’m going to keep noticing my feelings and thoughts and
honor them as they should be honored.
Blessings to you friend! Thanks for stopping by today!
My heart feels for you, friend. We are putting off the day we sell this big house and move to a smaller one. We will be empty-nesters this summer and don't need all this room, but how do you leave the house where your family grew up? We're not there yet!
ReplyDeleteBarbara, thanks for your thoughts and sorry it took me so long to reply! Still so much unpacking going on and it's been two weeks tomorrow! I don't think it's really hit me yet that I left the house my kids grew up in, but I did just leave one of them! Blessings to you!
DeleteChanges are hard. Adjustments take time. Bless you in your new move.
ReplyDeleteThanks for being honest about this Anne. We are facing moving on in the new year after 42 years here in January.
ReplyDeleteWalls seem full of laughter, music and words; things that don't pack in a box.
But, Anne, they are already packed deep in hearts.
Be of good courage! Take your new promised land.
I love that Elaine, "take your new promised land". Wow. That puts a whole new spin on this move! Thank you!
DeletePrayers for you as you pack up your memories and open a new chapter, an opportunity for God to write new memories on your heart.
ReplyDeleteThanks Mindy. I look forward to making memories here!
DeletePrayers lifted for you, Anne. I recently talked about "home" with someone else and how I love that our home is always home to our boys. So I can only imagine the emotions that must come with moving to a new home. And while "home" is so much more than a physical structure, my heart is with you. Sending hugs your way and praising God for the lasting memories you will always hold in your heart.
ReplyDeleteBlessings. xoxo
Thanks so much Beth! I have to remember that my youngest is 21 and they are all adults. We will all keep those memories tucked away of the home we had for 14 years, and we are already making great memories in our "new" home. I so appreciate your thoughts, friend!
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